Diary of a Sub

Trust can mean many things, to me it means being able to know that I can tell a person anything and they will hold it to themselves only.  It also means that I know that person will never deliberately harm me; I can relax knowing I am safe with them.  Trust is essential to a good relationship or friendship; it is the same with a Dominant/Submissive relationship.

You have to know that you can trust your Master to do a number of things.  1. To honor the terms of your contract, 2. To respect your limits and when you safe word to stop at once, 3. To hold what you tell him to remain between you two only and most important 4. To know that you are safe with him.  He will not deliberately hurt you, any punishment is meant for learning purposes.

My Master surprised me by how loyally he honored the terms of our contract the first time I was sick during our time together.  He came to me at once and did not leave me but tended to my care as a devoted nurse.  As I watched him it occurred to me that he cared for me with the same care that I devote myself to him during playroom time.  

Learning that he cared for me with the same level of devotion touched me in ways I did not expect.  In most aspects of my life he is my main focus.  He is the one I seek to please with all my actions and he is the one whose opinions matters.  Is that wrong?  I know we are not the normal "relationship" but it feels like maybe we are headed for something more than just Master/Sub.  Maybe I am wrong but I am going to continue to devote myself to my Master fully in all that I am and all that I do.